Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you.
1 Peter 4:12
I remember in great detail the night that my past relationship came to an end. It seems that I write a lot about this experience, but there are many reasons why I do. Both the beginning and the ending of that relationship has shaped me to be who I am today.
We had our ups and downs, some disagreements on things, but that is normal for any relationship. I remember the night that I heard those heart crushing words, and how I was so surprised. I sat there looking out into the night in shock, wondering why.
As strange and surprising as it was, little did I know how God was going to use that brokenness to bring me, who was barely an infant in my faith, closer to Jesus.
I will use them to test Israel and see whether they will keep the way of the Lord and walk in it as their ancestors did.
God does not bring anything into our lives for the intent to hurt us. That is not His character. God is love. He is all-knowing, and knows what is best for every one of us. He wanted the best for everyone of us so much, that he sent his only son to die for our sins, that we may have everlasting life. He wanted the best for us even if that best thing is the ending of a relationship.
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.
It was through that suffering that my faith was tested. When I came to the crossroad of an ending relationship, I had two options.
1. Retreat to my old self.
2. Run towards Christ.
I say there were two options, but there was truly only one I was able to take. My old self was dead, that choice was impossible. Jesus is my only hope.
It was through that suffering that my faith was refined. As much as I love my friends and family, I didn’t feel drawn to them in this time of need. The only thing that I knew that would bring me comfort was the word of God, fellowship at Church, bible studies, memorizing scripture, praying to God, meditating on His promises, and trusting in the Lord with all of my heart.
We all face trials of different kinds. In those trials, Satan tries to make us feel defeated, as if there is no hope, and as if God is working against us. I am well aware that the devil is scheming after me daily, as it is written so in scripture (1 Peter 5:8, Ephesians 6:12). Even over a year after the fact, the devil just doesn’t quit.
God is for us! Romans 8:31
God love us! John 3:16
God justified us by Christ! Romans 5:1-2
God saved us when we were sinners! Ephesians 2:4-6
God will never leave us not forsake us! Hebrews 13:5
God gave us a Spirit of power! 2 Timothy 1:7
God is working for our good! Romans 8:28